thecatevari | Lightverse: The Roofie/Wedding Fic

So a while ago, I decided (and then convinced Mona) that Neko Case's "Hold On, Hold On" is a Sam in Lightverse song.

The lyrics:

The most tender place in my heart is for strangers
I know it's unkind but my own blood is much too dangerous
Hangin' round the ceiling half the time
Hangin' round the ceiling half the time

Compared to some I've been around
But I really tried so hard
That echo chorus lied to me with its
"Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on"

In the end I was the mean girl
Or somebody's in-between girl
Now it's the devil I love
And that's as funny as real love

I leave the party at three a.m.
Alone, thank God
With a valium from the bride
It's the devil I love
And that's as funny as real love
And that's as real as true love

That echo chorus lied to me with its
"Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on"

That echo chorus lied to me with its
"Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on"

And so on one of my many re-listens of this song, the bolded verse leapt out on me and laid a Lightverse bunny about how Jake is conceived and what, exactly, happened at Dean and Lena's wedding.

Originally, I KNEW that when Dean announces to Lena that he's divorcing her, she ends up roofying him and that's how Jake is conceived. But then I tied it in together with the song and realized it's a pattern for Lena and that she also roofied Sam at the wedding.

Lena hit on Sam way back when, sometime after she and Dean had started fucking but before they knew she was pregnant. And Sam never said anything to Dean, because things between them were pretty fucked up at the time, but Lena knows that Sam knows that about her. And its the source of their mutual animosity. So Sam's at the wedding and he's kind of mopy and quiet and she sees Dean's all concerned about him and he's ruining HER day and so she slips him something in his champagne and tells him that it's his brother's wedding day and he needs to be a man and suck it up and be happy for Dean. And that really hits Sam hard, so he drinks the champagne and makes an effort until the roofie starts hitting him.

Lena knew her bridesmaid has a thing for Sam, so she sets the girl loose on the roofied Sam and she (the bridesmaid) ends up taking advantage of Sam in his state. WORSE (and what Sam doesn't know), when Sam disappears, Dean gets concerned, goes looking for him and SEES Sam "making out" (Sam's really fucked up and only semilucid at this point) with the girl and gets SO HURT.

So Sam ends up, for all intents and purposes, date raped and he never tells Dean about it. (I'm still not sure if he would tell Dean in the prospective story)

And so I think I'm going to intertwine these two separate incidents into a single story.

Hence, the following conversation with Mona:

poisontaster: So I think I figured out how to start the "Lena roofied Dean for his SEED" story.

mona1347: Ooooo NICE. SHE MILKS HIM. *gigglesnorts at self like madwoman*

poisontaster: *snorts*

mona1347: *clears throat* Sorry, it's a weird day for me in my brain

poisontaster: Basically, Sam's sleeping and Dean just shows up and crawls into bed with him and huddles up really tiny against Sam's side.
...today? or EVERY DAY?

mona1347: *nodnodnodnodnod* TODAY, h0r.

poisontaster: uh huh

mona1347: Like...more than usual. Shut up

poisontaster: And so Sam's like, "Dean? Dean? WTF? What's going on?"

mona1347: Yes

poisontaster: And Dean won't answer at first, but Sam's kind of freaking out because it's the middle of the night and who's watching the kids, etc

poisontaster: And so finally, Dean's like, "I feel weird." And he sounds WRONG.

poisontaster: And so Sam turns on the light and looks at him and Dean's pupils are BLOWN.

mona1347: *nods* And he's all WTF. Because Dean doesn't do drugs.

poisontaster: YES. And he's like, "Dean, how did you get here? Where are the kids? What happened?"

mona1347: [except for how he's a total stoner in canon the end]

poisontaster: And Dean just starts CRYING.
LOL. Yes.

mona1347: oh GOD.
(hee)

poisontaster: And Dean's like, "I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I don't...I don't know what happened. I didn't mean... I'm sorry, Sammy."

mona1347: *whimpers*

poisontaster: And Sam draws it out of him that Dean had sex with Lena and he didn't WANT to, but he doesn't know what happened or how he got there or ANYTHING. And Sam's like, "*I* know what happened." And then it goes into a flashback of the wedding.

mona1347: .........

poisontaster: Yeah.

poisontaster: And I'm thinking Dean left the kids alone... And so Sam has to go back to the house to get them and he ends up having a big confrontation with Lena about it all.

mona1347: *gasps in a breath* God, he's so fucked up. OH HELL YEAH

poisontaster: And that's when we find out that she hit on him way back when.

mona1347: SAMMY'S GONNA GO ALL MEDIEVAL ON HER ASS

poisontaster: YES.

mona1347: WORD!

poisontaster: *twitches* God, Lena is SO VILE.

mona1347: YES. SO INCREDIBLY VILE