Heartverse: Freaks Like Us

Yeah. I don't know what the fuck this is about, except Kink firing off random neurons. Heartverse.

"I just…I had two choices, you know?" Sam looks down and traces the toe of his sneaker with one finger. Someone—presumably Dean—has written the words: SAM WINCHESTER HAS COOTIES in marker across the white rubber like they're still ten. Sam snorts and rubs his eyes, smiling fondly. Then he looks up at Emma again. "I could sit and whine and cry and be bitter about the fact that my life didn't turn out like I wanted, or I could take the life I was given and make something out of it."

It doesn't hurt that this life turned out to contain Dean, in every way his stupid teenage heart had ever dared to imagine, he supposes, but even for all of that, for the joy of Dean, sometimes the sear where Jess burned out of his heart—and his future with her—still aches.

"I don't want to be a freak," Emma whispers, grimly looking down at the knife she's twirling point first in the mud.

Sam's smile widens. "Nobody wants to be a freak, Emma. Sometimes it just turns out that way."

Heartverse: Tonsilectomy/Baby Stuff

Further musings on the tonsilectomy fic with Kyra:

When Sarah's all pregnant and Sam's really hesitant and like "...um. can I touch?" and he feels the baby and then he wants DEAN to touch her belly and Dean's all uncomfortable and "naw, man, I'm cool." and then Sam BADGERS him into it and Dean feels the baby kick and he gets this WIDE EYED look on his face like someone just kicked him and he's so fucking amazed and he looks at Sam and Sam grins back like "YES! Isn't that the BEST THING EVER?"
nymeria: sam would be the SCHMOOPIEST, HOVERING father EVER
poisontaster: And then Dean has to be all cool and be like, "Oh. Um. It was okay."
He SO WOULD
nymeria: he's wanted this baby for a while and it's finally THERE and he'd be so excited and pulling dean into his excitement, you know?
... although now i'm picturing chelsea asking dean if the new baby will change anything between her, her dad and her stepmonster.
poisontaster: Yes. Dean never got to DO any of this stuff with Chelsea. It's all new to him too.
I think Chelsea would be worried that it would change stuff.
nymeria: it could be an interesting opportunity to look at the relationship between chelsea and sam
poisontaster: *nods*
nymeria: would she be worried sam would stop loving her once he has a kid of his own?
poisontaster: Yeah, I think she would.
nymeria: awww
and sam wouldn't notice this, too caught up in the whole I'M GOING TO BE A DAD! DDD thing
poisontaster: Not for a while. But Sam would be SO EXCITED. I think he'd even pull Chelsea in. "Hey! You want to hold her?" "Hey! Look! Her poo is GREEN!"

Lightverse: Jake, Babies and Breakdowns

And...a random chunk of Lightverse. The beginning of Jake, sort of. I figure it will be this whole "triangle" issue and Sam's continuing insecurity that will drive him to the breakdown that gets him into therapy.


( Sam feels an alpha male-type growl building in his throat and chest in the desire to assert that fact clearly and in no uncertain terms. )