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SPN - Genderswap bunny
Aug. 30th, 2007 12:41 amIn my ongoing flirtation with crack-fic (and really, Kink, WTF??), I've been thinking about genderswap. Genderswap can be fun, but I think a lot of time the...horror of losing your genitalia gets glossed over in the interest of Fun With Lingerie. That's not to knock anyone else's story; I just would like to see a slightly different exploration. I'd really be interested in an exploration of Dean LITERALLY as a transgendered person; a man trapped in a woman's body. I want to see Sam suggesting Dean go out and buy a bra and Dean is completely outraged ("There's no way I'm buying a fucking bra, dude, these are NOT my breasts.") as he winds his Ace bandage around his chest. I want to see him keep stretching and trying to crack his back and when Sam asks him what the hell is wrong, Dean growls that his back is hurting and he doesn't get why and it's up to Sam to explain that the breasts are pulling him off-balance.
I want Dean to sneak out and go to a sex shop and comparison shop all the fake cocks and buy himself a harness because he misses the heft of one between his legs and he's embarassed about it and he doesn't want to tell Sam about it and he's completely pissed and embarassed when Sam walks in on him. (I keep thinking about Kelly Preston in The L Word) I want Dean to rebel and rage about the betrayal of his body when he has his period. I want him to cry because of the hormones and because he REALLY WANTS HIS FUCKING BODY BACK and hate himself for it. He's paranoid that all the men are staring at him and he's more belligerent and up in their faces because of it, exasperated and pissed and weirdly vulnerable/scared.
And Sam's completely at a loss. He doesn't know how to console Dean on this. There's a tiny part of him that's relieved it's not him. He doesn't know if this is going to go away or whether Dean's just stuck like this. He has no idea what this has to even BE LIKE for Dean. And though he's determined he's going to fix this for Dean, he's also feeling uncertain that it IS fixable.
Fuck.
I really don't need more to write. You could stop any time now, brain. Traitor.
I want Dean to sneak out and go to a sex shop and comparison shop all the fake cocks and buy himself a harness because he misses the heft of one between his legs and he's embarassed about it and he doesn't want to tell Sam about it and he's completely pissed and embarassed when Sam walks in on him. (I keep thinking about Kelly Preston in The L Word) I want Dean to rebel and rage about the betrayal of his body when he has his period. I want him to cry because of the hormones and because he REALLY WANTS HIS FUCKING BODY BACK and hate himself for it. He's paranoid that all the men are staring at him and he's more belligerent and up in their faces because of it, exasperated and pissed and weirdly vulnerable/scared.
And Sam's completely at a loss. He doesn't know how to console Dean on this. There's a tiny part of him that's relieved it's not him. He doesn't know if this is going to go away or whether Dean's just stuck like this. He has no idea what this has to even BE LIKE for Dean. And though he's determined he's going to fix this for Dean, he's also feeling uncertain that it IS fixable.
Fuck.
I really don't need more to write. You could stop any time now, brain. Traitor.
